rubbishh

2011-07-17T01:36:00.001-07:00

I'm 22 le :(
Feel so old :X

Feel damn pisss offf with this job...

Especially some of the regular customer (who thinks their king)

im here to work not to entertain :X

colleague weird temper(don coperate at all)

not enough rest

Seriously in order to keep me alive for next few years i really need to change job!

2011-07-12T00:22:00.000-07:00

I'm just feeling normal today.
today very quiet...
wonder how's my life for 2011 will be?
Now is july already..
Soon it gonna turn 2012:X
Will i able to get the things that i want?
am i able to achieve my goals?
Or will i be gone ?

For me to know, for me to find out .

2011-07-10T00:58:00.000-07:00

I guess all along im just been dreaming...
its really enough for me...
times up le...

cherish all e memories of my family n friends.
bring those happy memories with me and leave
this sad world.
Anytime, Anywhere.

2011-07-03T04:58:00.001-07:00

Weee~
Its july....
And frm now onwards, i need to re schedule everything..
work n exercise work n exercise.
Really need this super fierce devil habit to get hook:X
if keep slack i wont be able to meet the target on time :(
just for you n me :)
so jys me cheese!

i know you wont wanna see me sad,
pinky promise i will smile always.
Whenever sad things happen,
i will think of u and smile.
Cause u make me feel stronger even
though u not here with me like before<3~

2011-06-29T01:59:00.000-07:00

Guess here is still the place that i can rely on to nagg
and vent my angers out...

Why is it so hard to survive in this world?
everything also wrong....
Today kinda piss with the customer...
anyway she's damn ridiculous...
the repair service suppose to be $50 n she say $40
after that is ok..
and we just manage to get the com done and she just walk in
and say why we havent install her old stuff all this...
its only just done and wad she expect? give birth also need time ..
after that we misplace her plastic bag..
cause my boss maybe took it . we apologize n we look for another bag
and she insists us to get back that damn bag!!
isnt she make things diffcult for us??
the repair fee already lose out 10 bucks n she stil can say we go
other place only cost $30. so what for she come here??
After that i go to next shop trying to look for a nice bag ,
before i come back she point her finger at me and warn
me not to do it again in front of so many ppl....
i really cant swallow it.. i just shoot at her no more next time!
i swear no more no more !!!!
we are humens but why must she make things so diffcult for us??
while we doing thre finishing part of hr servicing she keep use
indon to comment abt us..
i dunno all but i noe abit at least!

after this theres something make me kinda emo too ...
but after all im ok...
i guess im really ok..

i guess times up for me le ...
more than 20 yrs in this world i think is already enough for me ...

2011-04-25T21:41:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time i didnt blog..
R.A.N.D.O.M ~
i just feeel down..
i really don't know what's truth n fake.
Love is indeed curel...
i rather find someone that worth suffering then love.
Afterall my heart towards him stil the same...

2011-02-13T11:02:00.000-08:00

Day 74 Can't help it even i know that its impossible~

i just can't help myself from falling in
love with someone like you . . .
i never felt this love untill you came,
its so special n strong.
Without your love i find myself lost
and can never find my way
Till one day its too late to turn back.
And finally the answer i get from my heart
is i have been searching n waiting for
someone like you.
You the one that guide me through the journey
make me smile
you light up my life.

but....

2011-02-10T08:41:00.000-08:00

Day 72 i don feel hungry at all(Y)~

Jiayous me! 1000 Crane !

Sooo tired, today paste screen guard till i really shag
the pain really kills me!
Its damn pain whenever i walk.
Don care, mon go running:X

*No matter how bad you are,
i always believe that inside your heart
theres another good side of you.
I'm sure about it.
Cause my heart can feel it.
Time proves everything.

2011-02-09T08:38:00.000-08:00

Day 71 No special reason i just love you so much

Recently just came back from indonesia :)
Abit upset when i just reach sg, cause i rush back
but things didnt happen smoothly.
While at indonesia ~
Roar joko bro keep disturb me, mana ____ y nv bring
him come i was like ._. his busy . . .
They just keep see at necklace n keep ask me .
Stresss* Then kak kak don believe till she sae wann have
a closer look at it den she like O.O omg!
Days at indonesia kinda fun :) I
manage to play fire cracker n fireworks. . .
Then bro joko bring me out, ride on his motor
so scary ok . at first i was like eee! later tire burst then
they laugh. His sooo skinny hug him like nv hug :X
Then just hop on n mummy uncle fetch then head out for the
whole day.
Brand new hairstyle,Brand new me:)

Old Hairstyle . . .

New Hairstyle. . .

reno day 62

2011-01-31T09:55:00.001-08:00

Day 62 today after work went to shop n save buy wild mushroom cambell soup... Then it reminds me of the show centurion Hahaa the poison mushroom that the girl cook :) and the show reminds me of someone who sit beside me :x I'm having fever again :( sooo cold

2011-01-30T09:26:00.000-08:00

Day 61 I just love you so much without any reason ~

Recently sooo tired n shag ~
again my stomach giving me problem .
This time is like 3 times of normally the pain.
Really killing me . .
plus my back like keep pain dunno y its like been a week.
Chinese new year coming :( need to go back indonesia
Gosh!~ i sure gonna miss you so so much :X

2011-01-24T16:57:00.000-08:00

Day 55

As usual work, missing u without fail :)
for work wise, new partner for big sis :p
His actually lady boss relative but he insists his not
so lets be it.
But see the way he work his like, for 12 hrs
10 hrs his missing . . And still neeed me to round
over here n there to help big sis:X *faint
But i enjoy going in n out hahaas:X

Last sat, boss treat dinner so off work early~
This time he say i mus attend no matter what :(
is like shyt cant get away ~
So just attend at first thought onli got maybe
8 or 9? ended up is 2 table ._.! more than 15 ppl
i was like stone n freeze hand totally cold~
Then ask me drink i say i cant then they pour
say a bit abit then abit till few cups :(
i didnt really eat tooo ended up feel uncomfortable.
After dinner all pull me to peace centre the ktv?
Celebrate xiao yuan jie's birthday. .
Drink n sing :X They just cant stop laughing n staring at me :(
Ended up 1 down his drunk n talk alot hahas~
After that when i go home i just vomit
cause feel uncomfortable ~
And now another 1 partner n huai gege going back le ~
Bon Voyage ~

i just can't help myself
falling in love with you~
love me or hate me i still
be always here for you .
no matter what happen
i don care how people feel
about it, i only care how you feel abt it.

lost without you

2011-01-19T20:45:00.001-08:00

Day 50, it's been so long but I'm still lost ... Am I thinking too much or sensitive ?

2011-01-15T10:07:00.000-08:00

Lost without you day 46

You can do it why not me?
How i wish the time wil just pause there
I wish everything will just end there
Its suppose to be end very nicely
but i thrash it .
So now have this ending i also cant complain.
But i wish the time can turn back :(
i really need you . . . .

happiest moment

2011-01-14T19:04:00.001-08:00

Happiest moment in my life ~ the moment that I will never forget.

2011-01-13T17:55:00.000-08:00

Lost without you day 44

Hope everything can be back to normal
Please~
Cant wait for tomorrow. . .

lost without you

2011-01-12T07:11:00.001-08:00

Lost without you day 43, Miserable memories ~ good to bad ;'(

lost without ypu day 42

2011-01-09T20:15:00.001-08:00

Lost without you day 42, recently nothing much. Just meet fren talk n slack awhile that's all. Friday really awesome :) for work recently hit target again n is like x2 of my previous highest record. But just happy don feel high at all something is missing . . . Gosh now my 2 partner who work with mr keep rotate treat me eat . 1mr fruit n 1 mr dessert . Everyday whenever they go for lunch they will bring something back n put on my table :( pls don feed me till fat fat:( but afterall they r nice unlike the Lao you tiao ;x shoo fever even u come I still not eating :)

2011-01-04T10:19:00.000-08:00

Lost without you Day 36

Fever stomach really kills me
Work n work.
Beeen busy walking to other branch
taking over their job.
my job keeep running around here n there.
finally today im down!
i really very shag :(
Thanks partner for the koi:X

reno

2011-01-01T08:01:00.001-08:00

Happy birthday Reno ~

lost without you day 30

2010-12-30T22:09:00.001-08:00

Lost without you Day 30 Omg I saw his name I really damn high!!! * rubbing my eyes lots of time* really is him .But after today Jamilia will be gone totally new year new life. Sorry that she hurt u so badly .. She really so sucky n bad girl u ever met.

2010-12-28T09:00:00.000-08:00

Lost without you Day 27

So fast x Mas already pass~
so fast 27 day le . . .
soon 2010 going end .
Here goes my 2010 life .
Start anew possible?

Lets start from 24/12
the first outing with Lynda.
We meet at mrt station after our work
And im so shock i saw sean :X my ex actually stead with her. .
Singapore really so small, like this also can see each other.
But at first im so scare to tell her ,
eventually i still tell her :)
cause theres nothing to hide anyway . . .
Then we dinner at chinatown den head to eski bar:X
The first time i go after so long.
Last time i didnt go cause theres always a person waiting for me company me .
But not now, when i reach there i reliase i don feel excited like before,
maybe he change my life.
But not to spoil the countdown i hab to continue~
25/12 Merry x Mas ~
At eski bar already like 55% gg~
Thanks to rachel n sean!
Make me lose but sean lose more .
Ended up i keep lose to rachel ZZz. . .
Shyt stomach hurts so badly take a rest n then continue dice :X
N there it goes Lynda hugging ppl n ps-ing me :(
i was like gg~ *surrender* Play till like frm 12 to 15 dice left 7 only lol!
cant imagine how i play .
The i find that i like really cannot so stop
Look at it, it give me strength.
Hold it tite n his stil with me actually!
And sorry girl! cause im like abit drunk so never meet u :X
After a good nite sleep~
Went to work. .
Shag! work till 9 plus 10
All alone busy all the way !
Hit target .
After the break off since awhile i never hit target. . .
Finally i hit target!
26/12
mummy went to indonesia, i didnt follow . .
i just don wanna leave here.
27/12
I misss mummmy!!!~
And im super happy!!!
Finally she tak to me ~
I thought im dreaming !~

A big thanks to those who give me present!
Really love the present . .
But im sorry i still think having him around is the best :)
His already part of my everything~
And i love mummmmy~
She bought me 2 perfume gosh love her so much!

For work i have make quite alot of frens there.
so far so good :)
But the part not good is my boss:X
Recently they renovate the place .
And now i don have a place to put my bag
Tomorrow not going to bring bag! humph! stresss~

Stomach hurts everyday
Sooon i neeed pain killer again to kill the pain~

Miss this drink that matt intro~
From hagen daz~

And its PINK

The best friend of mine :)
work just opp me oo hahas

2010-12-22T09:50:00.000-08:00

Lost without you Day 21

Today everything smooth .
Just that today pretty quiet.
After that the 3 small kid came :X
Keep stick to me and ask me teach them fold star :)
Then small boy sit on my leg
and i teach him fold .
his so clever show him few times he know how to f0ld.
And he ask me fold more :X cause he lazy to fold.
Then i say wah y i fold so much?
He say he help me keep for your syg :(
wah i damn emo but his cute .
When i finsh work i stay there awhile den go back.

Stomach just getting worse :(
but still jys~

Today got a customer offer me a job
$20 per hr wonder should i go for it:X
my mind cant think of anything . . .

lost without you day20

2010-12-21T21:18:00.001-08:00

Lost without you day 20 Its been 20days . I thought I can get over it .But I can't, this time is really different . Just hope everything is alright for him . For work feel stress as usual. Can say more stress . It's been a year whenever I stress There will be someone who always there for me. Listen to me, make me laugh. Give me his attention n love. Not now anymore.. It's gone

2010-12-18T10:46:00.001-08:00

Lost without you Day 16

Wonder how's his day
did he enjoy ?
And today meet this stupid sheng fu
Which make me feel so irriated after so
long never see!
i say le i sure blog you man!
Cause u just irriate me!
Beeeen so noisy n disturb me!
omg i just hope u faster go :X
but before u go pls handle me the
present before u go :)
i wonder this year x'mas wad will happen.
And today just disturb eugene.
cause of the word boat n bed in chinese.
cause he prounce wrong :X
make me laugh.
And thats the time im thinkng
wheather if is syg how he prounce.
im sure he can do better than him. :)

dad still giving me black face whenever i see him .
feel damn upset.
Today work also crop up.
Lady boss quarrel with a customer.
And its somehow hinting me n blame me
for not explaining things well.
Yet customer insists that is not my fault
is lady boss attitude .
feeel so stressss~
Last hope uncle get well soon ~

2010-12-17T09:58:00.000-08:00

Lost without you Day 15

Today kinda shag.
And is a bad day.
Stresss at work again.
But mind just cant stop thinking .
Tears*
I'm so tired . .
But i just cant sleeep
Losing sleeep for duno how many days le :(

simply misss him loads~

2010-12-16T16:55:00.000-08:00

Lost without you Day 14

yesterday kinda happy
but tired too. . .
beeen never sleep well .
Stomach feeel so pain:(
friends don feeed me
anything le thanks. . :(
i wont fall again.

2010-12-15T11:41:00.000-08:00

Lost without you Day 13

Everythng seems so different.
Silent. Miss the way you talk .
Miss the way u tease me.
Miss your joke.
Miss everything about you.
In order to let u happy n enjoy is not to disturb you . . .
Reading an article about the lose weight show.
their story is like damn touch:(
Tears roll down again.
Lucky cousin pei me the whole day :X
Finally i found girl le.
I got lots of things to tell you.
i should have wait for u so u will lead me
the right path. . :(
im alone i cant really think.
Especially when im stresss.
all sort of things i will just blur it out.

Stomach really hurts so badly. . .
Still insists ! i can take it.
Cause the pain that i cause hurts more than that.
The pain that can never be repair i guess.
Hopeless chanceless

Lost without you Day 12

2010-12-14T11:34:00.001-08:00

Lost without you Day12

after work went to east coast .
Miss syg .
Can't control again when at work tears roll down again.

Lost without you day 11

2010-12-13T14:01:00.001-08:00

Lost without you Day11.

I have no goals n aim.
Everything just gone .
I'm shag cannot sleep n everything .
But it's gone ~

2010-12-12T12:14:00.000-08:00

Lost without you Day10

Yest im actually crazy.
its 11/12
Actually yest i did something stupid
go eat the candy that i bought frm clarke quay
the candy will show some color .
if change color means u good luck
if get greeeen wan means bad luck
if get white n a bit gold means u super good luck
n i got it! the white want
i thought i'll be super good luck :(
and its 11/12 but. . .
And today im sooo tired .
reach work place around 10 walk around n thinking
something . .
And i whole day busy packing n check stock.
tiring day.
i neeed someone to talk to, i neeed someone listen to me :(
i just missss syg~
and brother is back !
cant wait to see what bro get for me .
mummy tell me he get alot f things home
And april he's heading back to japan again!
ask him bring me along :( with syg? :X
impossible its too late. . .

i had really stresss him out.
my one wrong path can cause so many problem
he always treat me soo good yet
i just afraid of losing him n i did such a bad thing.

2010-12-11T08:38:00.000-08:00

Lost without you Day 9

Today is 11 . 1yr 2mth~
Reni love sotong

Today really tired n shag .
keep drop things .
even small things like pen casing
handphone i also drop.
Dont know why :(
After all i know is aku rindu awak~
im sooo tired but i cant get to sleep
the drugs killing me.
Floood without fail . . .

2010-12-10T15:16:00.000-08:00

Lost without you Day 8

In order to sleep i must see the photo
Reminds me of how we talk at nite the kiss
all this before i can sleep
But at the same time my eyes floood
i just cant take it .
Maybe his the most important person i ever met in my life.
1 yr plus, ever sincei know him this is the
first day i go home late cause i cant stop thinking .
Even work my eyes will just floood
Just now went to dobhy meet emiko saw felicia n matthew. . .
After that cause i don feel like going home
went to clarke quay with emiko n matt.
have a drink at Hagen Daz .
order a drink that matt intro
omg that drink make me abit blur cause way too strong :(
after that actually my stomach feel pain cause
i drink with empty stomach .
after all its beeen days i never eat jys jian fei
after drink head to party world
Listen to the song they sing make me floood again
cause i miss his singing. .
i misss everything abt him.
especially the secret .
Just reach home feel tired but i cant sleep.
the drug is still on.

2010-12-09T09:30:00.000-08:00

Lost without you Day 7

Yesterday didnt realise that i was hugging
my lappy sleep . .
I was shock when i awake. .
i'm really tired. .
I just cant kick that drug away~
Soon it gonna be weekends.
That will be the worse weekend
Cause i will be all alone.
Usually i will have him share story with me
chat n more. . .
Now i feeel the pain of living without him~
its really painful . . .
I cant imagine how i going to spend my
x'mas n new year~
I'm so afraid of that day cause thats not the plan
that i want it to be :'(

2010-12-08T09:48:00.001-08:00

Lost without you Day6

Today im at home alone
feel damn lonely. .
All not at home.
Kinda miss brother.
And i misss syg. Without fail
Just find that is hard to find
someone that u trust by your side.
Walking back home tears roll down.
Hav a small chat wit him
even though some topic really hurts me
but i still accept it.
Let time prove everything . .

2010-12-06T09:21:00.001-08:00

True love can create a miracle
out of it so believe it <3

There it goes~
His not going to read anymore too:(
Punishment day 1, 2 ,3, 4 n 5
Today is fifth day .
Everything gone, no matter what is the truth
it cant change anything.
Even though i regret also cant change it .
But at least he remind me something
yesh i wan him be happy~
so joanne! let go ~

first must say sorry to him n his friend.
really sorry if somehow offend or etc. .

is really bad letting ppl wait isn't it ?
and can feel his already tired
he don wanna be like this anymore
and he don wann tell me too
but in order not to make him stress
i have to do something
so i just sae alright !
And that alright really kills me
after plan n things happen
i only know what is flood~
Friends, mother, brother n buddy
all scolded me for been so stupid.
i have nobody to hug ~
i feeel damn idiot y i do this.
see my i touch
listening to song that syg once sing.
floood again~
After that next dae i jus take off
cause i cant work my mind just
cant help it . N feeling regret :(
go dobhy meet emiko n raymond
saw felicia then have a talk after that
DDR! back to my old self DDR to release stress
but it dosent work, cause its too deep~
DDR n :'( thats wad i do
after that go j cube meet an
audi but 5 min i log off really no mood
cauuse not reno
went buy gong cha try the drink
but i don find it nice
maybe i already lost the taste of sweetness
3Rd dae i take half dae off~
cause i really cant help just keep :'(
after that go bugis with dar dar.
again play fishing game that i once addicted to it
but its still the same :(
4th day floood as usual
work floood work floood~
everybody knows what happen .
all ask me to cheer up
thanks :( cause my soul just gone to a far far place
i really duno what to do n think
everything seems like i have no goals no aim
everything gone~
n today just know a fren? :X jas
omg her tattoo really nice
today she do somethings really funny
thats sweet of her ~
but im still :(
seeing kids they keep ask me y i :(
make me smile i also cant in fact i flood again
cause it reminds me of how we going to live
in our future.
everything gone~
Now im at mummy house.
cause at home im all alone .
brother went to japan dad not home
i feel very lonely
my phone so silent
Chery don upset le john will understand 1 day.
and thanks

*i didnt know i stress him so much
till everything end.
i feeel that i was damn selfish

He already got his new life n target
我相信他能做到
我相信他会很幸福
我相信他将有一个美好的生活
我就心满意足
Cause we still staring at the same sky

2010-12-02T08:29:00.000-08:00

ℒℴvℯ yℴu ♥

If i had a wish i would wanna be your tears,
to be born in your eyes n to die on your lips.
But if u were my tears,
i would never cry in fear of losing you~
i love you~

Most of my friends got their life
got into relationship, busy with work or school.
what will my life be after tomorrow?
will i be given a chance?

ALot of ppl share wit me their story.
bout r/s, they say looks not important
matter is the inner beauty.
i cann see they r really lucky n forturnate
but do anybody know will i be the lucky 1?
Nobody knows the answer. .
i was thinking im freaking 21,
how many r/s i need to change?
by then how old will i be?
Plus when ever quarrel with dad
he will ask me faster get married
an uncle rich rich one also can
as long as can support u .
it really hurts :(
But afterall love cant be force,
i have to . . . .
Jys rubbishh~

Hope the Crane grant me my wish
No Regret making that wish ♥

(Y) Think back~
is really stupid cover here n there.
and i cant even expect i do til that extend~
Love that stupid memories n feeling.
Love the way you are~

2010-11-24T08:01:00.000-08:00

The last chapter~

This year dec will be the worse nightmare i ever got?
nightmare? should be memories? Relief? happy?
i also have no idea what i trying to say?
Awaiting for next week outcome.
Maybe it will sounds drama/evil/unbelievable
but indeeed i did something bad.
She's right, he should leave me long ago
he deserve someone better.
im so sorry i say something offend till him
i really didnt mean it .
but going back to indonesia i meant it ba
cause there really relax.
i also dont know :(
rubbish will always be rubbishh. . .

Thanks to sotong.
he teach me alot.
forgive n forget
will makes my life better.
i totally agreee!
thats wad i do today actually
forget what they done
n forgive them.

my love for u will never stop ~

2010-11-18T08:37:00.000-08:00

Hate that work~

kanna con =[ at first say till so nice
ended up is shyt :X
Treat me machiam rubbishh.
-take my stuff without asking me
-late end work (ALWAYS)
-move my personal belonging without letting me noe
-say my things is rubbishh
-spoil my card reader
-take my memory card
-throw old stock to me n expect me to hit target
-interrupt ppl's conversation
so many BAD points!!
What a worse job i ever work at
what to do
damn shyt man ~
my things all spoil
Damn stress~
how to hit target with all thos sucky design accessories.
is like sooo ugly man.
But lucky make some new frens ^^
Gordon! the smal kid
his sweeet,
hw give me a drawing with me n sayang in between
theres a heart shape :X
his so sweeet man .
he always find me hug me play wit me hahs
his soo sweeet make my heart melt
everyday i will go buy sweet for him =]
cant wait to see him tml . . .
when i saw him i feeel much happy :)

love u anyway sayang ~

2010-11-14T07:17:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Danial n jas~

Recently just change hair style~

Yes again alot of things happen
after all we clear n pass again.
But have to thanks to darling.
But after all i feel rather sad too.
sometime i thought i really can
find somebody to share some problems
but didnt expect that i actually annoy them?
or somehow troublesome to them?
maybe we dont know each other well .
After all keep it to myself is the best?
like i always do.
Or just all shooot out to my sayang? :X
yesh love sayang alot! Sayang really change alot,
n he is the 1 who understand me totally!
im so lucky to have him. . .

2010-11-08T19:44:00.000-08:00

Recently alot of things happen :(
thanks that finally over :X
This work really stress me alot
i also dont know listen to who
frens tell me lady boss n boss is same rank
so must listen to both of them
yet who going to understand me?
Both same rank lead me to different direction?
One sae ok one sae no?
So i split myelf into 2?
Sounds no link at all. . .
post some pic of Hope & Fate.

2in1

p.s:that night i just punish them, use pampers wrap them
see both their face so emo n sad.
after all i still love them
Last i love my sayang, sorry:(

2010-11-01T20:50:00.001-07:00

Flu~~ Roar i hate flu~

yesterday dad angry with brother.
wonder should i go home today .
if dont want go home also scary~
cause mum house i scare .
roar my flu sooo bad :(
cannot stand . sore throat ....

2010-10-28T09:02:00.000-07:00

Tiring ~

Gosh today kinda goood business . .
And i hit over the target they set
lalas~ But stl having slight fever
till my face like abit red:X
Then hand cold like ice~
Gastric pain :(
Getting worse~ jialat

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I can't predict what will happen
in the future.
But i know as long as you with me
my life will be happy go lucky~
With you by my side everything will
be fine, cause i believe you are my
hero .
You the one who can make me smile.
Even though we quarrel at times
but we love each other more
after the quarrel~
Afterall the reason is
I LOVE YOU
I maybe jealous at times cause
i don't wanna lose you~
Sorry if i say anything wrong.
After all i still LOVE you~
Cause you are the only one i wanna
spend my life with.

2010-10-27T08:58:00.000-07:00

Please don ever let him go ~

stresss over work ,
the boss n lady boss really kind of rediculous~
I neeed someone to talk to.
his the only 1 i will only go to.
Pls don forget our Pinky Promise:)

Cold Cold Cold :(
Feeel so unwell . . .
i neeeed sayang~

Now Tagged n Facebook like no
difference le so don think i will go for fb:X
stick to tagged n knda lazy to change too~

2010-10-26T09:11:00.000-07:00

Wound infection make me fever~

Gosh today dinner at mummy hus
finally got a nice meal:X
sick of maggie noodle but jus chiong!
Saw my baby hope n fate:)
omg they grow fat le :X hahahs
mus be goood life stayin wit mummy eh .
then play with them n cab home.
when i waiting for cab theres this cab stop there
so i jus walk over ask wether is avaliable?
And he sae wait, den ended up saw a person vomit at
the road side:X lol~
Then i think the driver tryin to ask him for cab fare
and then i take the cab :X
But the person drunk, so hot temper:X
ended up they both quarrel :(
and is like keeep pointing at me
i was like blur! ended up so many ppl see
even police car come :X nice uh!
T.T im like a retard ended up waste my time. . .
BAD DAY~
Work im like blur too
maybe cos fever make me moody :(
afterall nobody cares~ so jojo shld jus shut up!
awaiting for i phone 4 white ~
Chiong ar!~ T.T
And yesterday meet emiko awhile
to collect stuff frm her.
Then when i reach paya lebar mrt station
kanna stop by person do survey
is like so many ppl do same survey
then ended up jus do :X
And is like abt Church stuff
i was like ._." kanna cheat
after finish they stil ask me hold on awhile
they wana explain something i was like
wth ~ u told me to finish the survey onli
ended up ask me stop again for 5 min
their words cannot trust :X
ended up i leave a contact there
then they let me go .
ended up they realli call me today ask me
meet them n talk i was like :(
but i sae i busy so meet them tml :X

2010-10-18T21:42:00.000-07:00

Gosh ~
Morning war!~

Today 6 am 2 little mischievious puppy
bully me~~!
Keep lick bite step on me
just to wann wake me up :X
nice mummy command
so no choice hab to wake up .
soooo tired

2010-10-17T09:00:00.000-07:00

Today mummy move hus~

today help mummy move hus
and i be moving in tml
cuppose to move in today but cause my stuff too
many so move in tml:X
Don think i will use to it.
mummy sae~
RULE no. 1 wake up at 6
no. 2 running!
i was like T.T wa!!!
Hahahas ~
Today move Hope n Fate go mummy hus first
Then i put Hope n Fate at stairscase they don dare to
walk down or go up stairs . make me n mummy laugh like hell~
and i randomly saw last time Agnes pampers.
So i use n wrap on Hope he loook damn cute hahahs^^

After that went bishan
buy Koi cafe passion fruit .
Then head to arcade with dar dar play the fish game
when jackpot that time half way ppl go off the machine
n the stuff there claim that is blackout
And the blackout super nice! is only the machine we play blackout
wad a nice excuses n his sooo rude!
how i wish i can complain.
Pack up and jus head to bugis.
went to bugis street find my shorts
and shop around there n go to bugis arcade.
use left over token play the fish game again!
Finally i win 4 jackpot n 1 big jackpot! 1000 token
plus bonus 445+ so totally 1ooo+! weeee! high sia~
Then after that go home.
bought something frm body shop~
didnt manage to get my shorts *emo
gonna wait for next week :(
Tml start job training~
Jys me ~
Last! sayang start sch tml le oo jys too~

I Just Love The Way You Are~♥

2010-10-15T08:15:00.000-07:00

I Hate This Feeling ~~

Omg :( Feeling unwell again.
Cough Flu n fever keep on n off. . .
And easily get sore throat:(
Today kanna stop by a . . . . . person
who do servey ^^ haahahs ~
Relax~ While i waiting for mummy at bugis.
Then this girl talk to me alot :X
And comment about my voice ._.
Then she shock when i told her im 21 :(
Gosh! i'm like so ps . . .
After that head to Pet Lovers n buy baby's nail cutter
and some pet treats.
Check some pet dry foood info then head to cold storage
n buy mineral water while on the fone wit darling :X
Then head home, bath my baby cut their hair n tada~
im bored till now. .

i just love the way you are~

2010-10-12T14:08:00.000-07:00

I'm so down~~

Don't ever save me. .
Just let it be...
I'm not worthy.

2010-10-11T10:06:00.000-07:00

Finally 1 yr ~
Weeee!! love u lots~

Sorry peepz for late reply, cause busy working.
Will update back sooon~

2010-10-01T08:30:00.000-07:00

i'm COMPLICATED~~

Today at work, think alot of stuff~
Been thinking my loook so cui how sia
In order to be happy, you need to be pretty.
IF not it sure will be like hell for you.
Even though people always say:" No la look
not important what matter is heart."
But things still change. .
After all look stil affect us alot.
I must jiayous ~~
Work harder and be les hahahahahs~
LAME when i think of this. .
But im not joking, just wanna share what i been thinking
haish~~ LOOKS LOOKS n LOOKS
Why must LOOKS so important.

And today handle a very rude customer.
Is a malay customer of mine boss.
First he say he bought this phone at my shop here
can change. But i see the phone is so long ago
got 3 -6 mth range ago~
Usually warranty is only within 7 days .
so i cant change for him.
Second reason is cause is not i handle
is my boss, but he already pass away.
So i cant do anything only can explain to him
that the most he trade in and i give more discount
Before i could finish he start%@#%@#% .
Then i explain to him, first i not the 1 direct
handle the phone to him.
Second is so long ago~ i know the shop stop for 3 mth
but bussiness resume going 2 mth then u come back.
is already tooo long.
Then he shooot at me what not direct handle frm u .
you got help him test the phone all this.
And i rem i was just assist him change batt
so means i sell u phone ? (beside him means sell to him)
Second i buy frm here why cannot change.
(few month later then change)
Third he say can change want. (he already pass away
how am i suppose to know)
Then i answer him back.
i say sir this phone is like long ago . .
and is second hand how am i suppose to change for u
and that day u bought this hp i just assist him.
i didnt directly sell to u so means u r his customer not mine.
Third he already pass away, and i didnt really heard what he told
you n b4 he pass away he didnt say anything so i cant do anything.
And then he start to shout~~
Say i'm really not good, not good in doing business.
Then i just give him an example, now i sell u this hp
and my fren sit next to me just help me abit .
so if tml i pass away? are u going to look for my fren?
just cause he sitting next to me n help me?
so means he sell directly to u . he kept quiet.
after he nothing to say. HE JUST CURSE ME!
Say i die better.
I just tell him ok tml rem read newspaper.
Just hope tml im stil alive~

damn stress~~~

2010-09-28T08:48:00.000-07:00

Puppy~~~ FATE n HOPE

This 2 puppy really very playful
but they still young, so understandable:)
After all they are so adorable
always make my heart melt ~
Even Daddy n mummy plus brother
heart also melt. . .
hahahs~ They are just simply so CUTE :)
Love them loads~

RANDOM~~
I already expected what you gonna say,
but why won't you just admit it. . .
just let me go away ~
Guys always say things so easily,
but the action already betray them~
But the worst thing is they wil never admit till
the very last minute.
Whats the point keep till the very last minute?

joanne rubbishh
rubbishh joanne
im just a very cui rubbishh ~~
thats me :)
accept me before you talk to me
accept me before u hold me

Last but not least. . .
i still love my sayang :)

2010-09-21T08:33:00.000-07:00

SICK SICK SICK ~~~~

Recently been busy entertain puppy

FATE-female
HOPE-male

1 mth plus old only :)

Will update more pic soon ~

ROAR feeel so uncomfortable fever
flu n cough plus sore throat.
Feeel so :( pain . . .

Last aku cinta padamu sayang ~

2010-09-13T08:10:00.000-07:00

ROAR!!!!! ~~

roar today meet rach at amk
den go see movie time buy ticket after that
go eat something subway~
i eat subway wrap so FULL!!!
gosh after that watch Resident Evil afterlife
kinda bored for the first part ending stil ok afterall
nt veri nice cause got second part i guess after movie
walk around n get some hp brocher
den go mos burger slack n rach keep
bbm-ing n whatsApp-ing :X roar =[
jus ps me at a corner sms-ing
ask her not to bbm she whatsApp
ask her dont whatsApp she sae can fb
ask her what abt don fb she sae can msn
ask her don msn-ing
she sae can tweet:(
Roar~~~
wait for me my bb gang hahahs :X

pls don't ever break your promise :( i feeel insecure~

2010-09-12T09:36:00.000-07:00

Tiring day ~

Today after work go parkway parade
pet shop buy some stuff . . .
Before go pet shop dinner at centre there
muslim western so nice:)
after that went to buy KOI's milk tea (V)
the Q fast n short unlike Iluma, tpy n amk branch
neeed to wait sooo long :X
after that go pet shop get the fence
but the sam's pet shop don hab the type that i want already
so go to parkway shopping mall pet lovers to get
n im shock the price cheaper then the sam's pet.
But the shampoo more expensive:X
at least stil cheaper then serangoon i guess. . .
the rest of the stuff i think mus after i bring
them home den buy:X
omg im broke =[

Checklist
- pet food
- cushion
- food bowl
weee the rest jus use curly or agnes want hahah:)

Peepz~~
Pet Name Wanted!
Male
Female

2010-09-10T12:23:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya~

Today hari raya .
Suppose to go back indonesia.
But i choose to stay .
Recently i really not happy at all.
Things really change.
Time to let everything go.
Today rain almost whole day,
weather so cold.
and i'm sick again .
fever, flu n cough.

Had a bad day yest .
Recently really very unlucky.
Quarrel la money lost all sort of things happen.
Damn stress, nobody to go to .

WANTED~~
i need 2 new pet name..
For puppy
1 female
1 male
Feel free to drop at tag board

when ever i neeed u i hope u be'll there
but . . .
a sorry will make things back to square
but it will still break the square if you
don't meant it. .

2010-09-02T09:00:00.001-07:00

HapPy birthday daddy ~~~
If his around he already 60 T.T
miss him lots. .
Been busy doing his stall stuff
Till so long nv blog le
also seldom online le :(
Very TIRED :(

n last of all i misss u ever single min.
you should know who u r
muackiies n love u ^^
my one n only ~~

2010-08-26T09:02:00.000-07:00

This is my first time i feel so bad.
Ask her to help me with work stuff in fact cause her trouble.
Her bf don believe i wit her all along.
And is like only we both girls. . .
Think abt it, u both together 1 yr plus le. .
And her bf say want see our picture i take with her .
but i ask her delete cause i find it ugly n i very shag
yet what jus cause of this her bf insists she with some one else.
Even though i try to explain to him.
SORRY~
cause i ask her help me work plus jus nw ask her delete the pic
ended up cause this problem.
that make him misunderstand her.

explanation~
she's with me all along
since morning.
we been busy doing store n set up stall~
clearing stuff n packing stuff.
dinner with her
see her use Fb. cause she use my broadband.
went to buy my hair accessories n go home.
we did take pic but i insists her to delete

i feeel helpless ~
And im very shag .
So many things awaiting for me to settle.
Stock
Money
bla bla bla. . .
all the thing i cause want.
i own self bring more trouble .

2010-08-23T13:25:00.000-07:00

ROAR~~

she's so HYPER till im still awake right now =X
Todae Lizhen my cousin come my house
over night. Hahahs~
Before that i meet her at bugis around 2 plus.
Then head to store settle payment
after that go suntec then buy dinner home.
Omg i like sick again:X
cause i kanna rain twice :(
feel cold n headach . . .
Hope no fever
This thurs i will start work le
Will be busy with alot of stuff and stress :'(

sayang, aku cinta kamu~♥
nothing can break us apart

2010-08-17T09:54:00.000-07:00

He's so handsome n cool , he's the
baddest guy i see i
wondering why i only see u in my dreams.
and love all my life , he's the only one for me
my L.O.V.E oh~~my love. . .

Today go store settle stuff n sort things.
Ended up raining alot of things cant do :X
So clear bit by bit. . . Walk pass the place that he use
work kinda miss him:( i miss u daddy ~
After that kinda stress actually but after all im alright.
Bought cash book @ ARTbox
FBT short n tee. . .
Jys me ! GYM GYM GYM~

2010-08-16T10:47:00.000-07:00

Today go meet cousin,
go her house help her download mozilla firefox.
Then do nail polish stuff and slack around her area.
Dinner at Long John.
Now stomach hurts Zzzzz...

Mon - GYM
Tue -GYM
Wed - GYM
Thur- Work
Fri - Work
Sat - Work
Sun - Work
This will be my coming schedule.

2010-08-15T09:19:00.000-07:00

Finally funeral over le:X
But actually i still cant get over it.
I cant imagine this thurs how i will be when i get back to shop
This thurs i will be taking over the shop, taking over his business.
Hope i can cope and do better.
Hopefully nobody will find trouble there.
But i sure this coming thurs my life wil be kinda tough.
Cause several CID ppl call and ask me stuff bout there
and people there been bothering about the stuff.
I simply miss him !~

Today go suntec wit dar dar then meet emiko n raymond.
Revise my jap language.

PLAN
- Shop n business
- Next Year study
Jys me n emiko!

2010-08-09T17:27:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday Singapore ~

Memories~
God daddy today pass away
and is on national day :'(
Rest in peace daddy.

I don't know is it good or bad.
Should i feel happy for him or sad.
Good?- cause he don't need to suffer anymore.
Bad?- cause he actually don't wanna leave yet.
(cause he struggle twice but nt the third time)
Happy?- cause he finally don't feel pain n can rest.
Sad?- cause i don't want him to leave me yet.
I just cant accept the fact that he already leave the world.
Cause i see him almost everyday, suddenly something missing
so sudden, so fast n i didnt even manage to see him this morning.
Today i actually preparing to go out yet a phone call n smses
say that: " dad already pass away."
don't believe i thought im dreaming. *pinch myself no! is true !
i reply back :"What?."
And yes is the same reply from them.
Then phone ring~ yes he already leave us. . .
Tears just burst out from my eyes, i just abt to see him
Y. . . so sudden so fast.
I cannot accept the fact that he's already gone.
When mum come home, there it goes i hug mummy n i cry.
i really cannot stop the tears. .
Wait till nite then i go down the funeral.
Saw his photo n coffin i cant control again n tears roll down again.
i really still dont believe his dead.
After talk to brothers they all. I thought i can let go.
But no, think back abt how i spend times wit him all this.
My tears just keep roll down.
Then i know that i still havent let go .
Really hard to let go. But i have too.
I can't imagine what will happen this friday.
I hope i wont cry. Cannot cry.
Something really missing out of sudden.
Miss his voice, his look his everything.
Miss him always~ ♥
even though his not my real dad, but since young
he always take care of me.
Teach me, play talk with me.
Not like my real dad. Only bring money home means
he take care of us.
All the while his like my real dad.
Thank god that his son accept me as half sister.
And im happy that even though he in pain
and when his mind nt very clear like half concious,
he still remeber me n mummy.
Hold my hand tightly n smile~

2010-08-08T09:16:00.000-07:00

Say is easy, but hard to do.

i hate this feeling.

2010-08-07T13:31:00.000-07:00

Full of laughter n Tiring Day~~

Today meet Rach n jensen go suntec
then go marina square walk walk.
First reach suntec then go buy Royce Nama
white choc:X Then see got any movie can
watch, then go eat at kfc :X
After that we walk to marina square.
At first actually i kinda emo :(
Then after awhile im ok :X
Shop around marina cause some place got sales
like Zara, Mango, Dorthy, Top Shop n etc. . .
And we go arcade play games(so long nv touch),
Play house of dead 4 n bishi bashi. . .
Actually want play para but with rach around
im stress!:X Oops! hahahs
Then me n jensen keep disturb Rach cause she k
eep say she very broke no money only left $4+ bla bla. . .
so we was like keep calculating how much she
left all this hahas. .
After shopping tired le go Starbuck chill. . .
Bought java chip :X Then we slack n talk.
They machiam interview me :X
Keep ask thing about my baby ._."
Then suddenly Rach take out my i touch play Tap bubble:X
omg she break my high score.
Then after that we take turn n play break high score.
ROAR! both of them break nearly all my score ! ._."
Imagine we hold the i touch n keep taping non stop.
1min see can tap how many bubble!
now the high score is 392:X aww wonder what
they eat so good in tapping.
Untill Rach is Destroy queen n jen is Cleaning King :X
hahas y neh cause rach tap can hear her nails sound tapping
n jen tap til like his cleaning my i touch :)
But kinda fun :)
After that i go home n they go somewhere else.
i nvr join them cause stomach ach like hell and im
tired tomorrow still need visit god daddy wonder how is he le :X

2010-08-04T10:57:00.000-07:00

Finally back to blog~

ROAR why i keep headach n stomach ach ! :(
Damn xin ku :'( arrgh!~

Recent i meet emiko, rach and dardar.
All last min say meet:X
Recently i watch Despicable Me n The Sorcerer's Apprentice.
This 2 show damn nice :)
Next i wanna watch is Street Dance n Tekken :X
And cant wait for the Resident evil3D n KOF!
Alot of new show coming le. . .
Just now after dinner, watch tv wit dad in the living
room.
Watch News n he sudden so random talk abt World End soon.
LOL! @.@ i was like dad wad u sae jus nw??
Then he repeat world going end so mus buck up work hard:X
n sae u nv read news?
Nowadays alot of news talking abt ppl see UFO all tis.
plus the weather, those flood n forest on fire all tis.
You dunno world going end?? i was like @.@*
n i reply ya 2012 ma jus 2 yrs time hor? So wad for i work harder?
And his hand jus SMACK* i was like joking onli ma .__."!
And he sae when the time all those alien come is really world
end le, plus now we see those UFO cause they r checking on us.
When time comes they will attack n here it goes world end.
And i reply the alien cute ma? mus be really cute how i wish i hug them.
Here it goes another SMACK* ._."!
But seriously dad u believe got aliens? n UFO??
And he sae um! i was like oo y they need to waste time check on
us then attack?
Cause the alien miss me that's y :X

..............

SMACK* Wah 3 times k! i was jus joking na .__."!
n he stil cann sae got mosquito!!! DoottsssZ~
And my dad sae sooon i wan u follow me go church :X
i was like aww !~~~ YOU MUST BE KIDDING!:)
And dad realli kinda hyper today.
finally i manage to come room blog n listen song:X
MISSION CLEAR no more alien topic n smack treats!
And last! oh yay i collect 1000 token le ! wee~ 2ooo more to go :)

Things really change not like before,
Hot turn Cold,
Sweet turn Sour,
And smile turn to Tears.
You don't know what exactly
happn n what im thinking right now. . .

2010-07-26T08:25:00.000-07:00

RUBBISHH feel so UPSET!

Roar!~ About the job really feel so . . .
Ask me go training ended up ask
me wait for call like wasting my time
Training 5 Hrs give me $10.
Friends all sae y i so stupid go for that job.
Zzz... Stupid me. After that god father also
sae y i so silly go for that interview :'(
i was like haish T.T after that,
mummy told me maybe hari raya?
might going indonesia again!~

Recently~
i addicted to this game in arcade
the fishing game:X frm Japan
So far i have collected 850 Tg token
n extra 27 left:X
Looking forward to collect more :)
Hmm got what use after i collect so many?
can change stuff actually like camera n etc...
i just enjoy playing the game, cause i
didnt really spend alot on tis game.
First time i play is like $10
last me for around 3-4 hrs. And i didnt even
notice that i sit there for so long(butt gt flower)

Kinda Suprise that actually DDR got
NEW version:X DDR X2
happen to see frm a web site.
Guitar n drum too V7
is like WOW mani new games.
MIA arcade kinda long le :X
Sudden so many new games hahas.
Don't think will touch those game
without emiko or my peepz^^
Meeting emiko soon for my
Japanese language lesson hahas:)

2010-07-16T07:22:00.000-07:00

Feel Damn Idiot
Recent stay home Waiting for 21/7 WED
Training start. If possible will be working
either town or yishun :X Miss old work place :(
Change new enviroment sure screw up :X
Need time to adapt hope training nothing
goes wrong some more working style different.
This time is work independently :( Mummy todae
come home, she still keep ask me the same question:X
ROAR~~
Tomorrow sat, going out wit mummy around
11 plus ba or 12 plus. Maybe going get new phone,
LG lollipop:X I find that this month i watch alot of
movies, Toy story3, 9 Temple, Blood pledge, Predators
and Twlight saga.

2010-07-15T00:54:00.001-07:00

RANDOM!!!!

2010-07-14T14:59:00.000-07:00

ARRGHHH!!
Birthday sux:X Bad 21st Bday for myself

Yawn didnt sleep well :'(
realli damn tired. . .
todae mummy come home saw me cry :X
keep ask me who bully all this. . .
T.T i jus feel so sucky .
Then tis morning the person call ask me
able to go interview ma:X around 2pm
i was like omg tired n shag so i sae stick to thurs.
Some more so bad luck during bday, if interview
sure gg de :(
Meet rachael go East Coast Park.
Eat mac, walk walk at the beach, slack n drink.
Thanks for company me.
Thanks Brother n Mummy for the present.

Really miss u loads :(
haish, but theres nth i can do :X

Things change easily. . .

2010-07-13T10:15:00.000-07:00

Miserable Birthday~

Feel so sucky now. . .
Damn:( What a 21st bday. . .
Things don go well this year.
Fine Whatever! I'm Rubbishh~

Todae meet yvonne at pasir ris.
Sorry! im late:X Cause didnt sleep for the nite.
Eneded up morning den able to get some rest...
But ended up late:X Then take a bus head to
downtown watch movie Predators.
hahas kinda nice n funny some parts but very gore also:X
When reach downtown buy movie ticket that time,
the girl give us the tic den sae need show ID when entry.
i was like lol den aftet that i ask yvonne
the show is it rated as R 21?
hahas:X Den ended up the movie is Nc16.
Gosh do we look so young? :X
And the ticket she wrote NO REFUND so big :(
Dots ._." After movie shop at White sand then
head to simei n home sweet home.
Thanks yvonne for the birthday card:) bestie we know each other since pri 1 :)

This year is the worse year i ever have,
only scolding n quarrels.
No laughter. .
Shed Tears everyday. . .
Soon im bleeding Rubbishh~
Any Girls avaliable ? *loves

2010-07-12T12:53:00.000-07:00

Happy 21st Birthday Piggy CHERYL
hahahas ~ Own u a present first :)

And sorrie Danial if i make u feel that way,
i didn't mean it :(

Todae shop @ suntec.
before that morning got interview. . .
But don't think can make it .
Hope this Thurs the interview i can make it.
But he sae if pass den i will

work at west area

n not tpy:X a bit sian but no choice. . .
Cause i need job :X
Todae bought nail polish n 2 foundation. . .
I'm Real broke le. . .
Todae caught 4 mao mao
2PINK 1GREEN 1ORANGE

You are just like them :X
What you sae is just entertain me?
I really cant belive that ...
You sae you are difference from them
but. . .
haish
love is all abt sex .
Why must sex involve in every relationship?
No sex no love.
What is true love?
Do True love need sex in return?

SNSD Who Look Best Without Makeup & Who is the most 4D?

SNSD Alcoholic Level !

Thx buddy for cheering me up :X the video really funny:)
no wonder u keep laughing :P

2010-07-11T09:12:00.000-07:00

Rubbish Upgrading in progress~~
style change^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Grandma~
love my grandma lots
although i seldom accompany her:X
theres a reason behind it but i wil try to
accompany her more:X

Recently have a bad dae. .
but its over so no point keep thinkin
Freak feeelin so cold :X

No matter what you do,
even i dont get to see you often. . .
but i can feel your love.
Cause you already Rob my heart :)

2010-07-07T12:38:00.000-07:00

Todae visit god daddy @ NUH :X

kinda piss of cause of the nurse.
his sick wil tend to nag n
wad kind of attitude
that nurse show sia:X damn
cann see she frm china:X
the way she tok :X cause she
don understand eng also.

Then go Shopping, go NEW LOOK
bought 1 skirt n 1 top.
Bought 1 legging for mummy:X
Slack @ starbuck n chill.
Bought 1 muffin, n im eating the muffin nw:X
so sweet :X
And LAST i FOUND my cookie monster hahahahs xD

2010-07-04T12:54:00.002-07:00

Back to blog again.
hahahs look at the cookie monster:)
But now missing :( i dont know y :X
Hmmm. . . ok anyway todae somebody COOL to me ar.
WHAT:X :(
Now i bloggin while emiko n cheryl chit chatting non stop :X
ROAR!~ now having my japanese lesson
Konchiwa~ Arigato~ Ohayo~ Oyasuminasai~ watashi wa buta~
hahahs:X Cant imagine emiko willing to spend so much
just to get her mongolian language book n CD :X
Damn ex ish like 135$ buy@ Kinokuniya
So RANDOM y emiko @ my hus . . .
cause she miss her last train :) due to her client late for the meetin:X
Raymond manage to go hm but nt emiko :X
Yawnz~ so tired tml stil need wake up @ 7am
Oyasuminasai おやすみ^^

あなたは私を必要とするたびにもう二度と
人を残して、私はあなたのそばにいるよ。

2010-07-04T01:40:00.000-07:00

Recently reali alot of things happen. guess i bad lucky ba:X

Recently dad in hospitel .Quarrel wit aunt cos of my family stuff,

quarrel wit my baby, quarrel wit dad n alot of rubbishh reali damn stress.

Work also problem, everything problem n i reali dunno wad to do.

Hugging this cute doll when i'm down.
Simply loved tis doll, n recently Rachael caught
1 too only 1$. hahs don forget credit to who oo :)

Toook some picture~
This picture look so cui :(
Damn ugly, afterall post in my own blog so nvm
hahahs~

This is the cat that i always talk about:)
i always bring her home whenever i saw
her at @house downstairs. . .
Play with her after that bring her down again:)
This cat very hyper de :X
Recently i watch Toy story3 n 9 Temple with Rachael.
After so long nv meet her n go shopping:X
Recent go orchard tour wit her:X hahahs~
she bring me to 313,Ion n taka etc~
About dad, i reali duno wad to sae.
Whenever he start a conversation with me
is all about mummy bad things, n is like before they give birth
to me all also tell me. He sae jus wanna let me noe.
But since already past jus let it go le ma no point keep saying:X
He tell me before i born my mummy already do wrong to him,
but since before got me already like tat y stil give birth to me
since he always SUSPECT i'm NOT HIS DAUGHTER.
That reali hurts me actually, how he can sae tat.
Now he sae y he ask me go study i don wann to?
Why i chooose to go ITE bukitbatok tat time
Why i don wann go Macpherson? i Told him
is not tat i don wann is they nv offer the course that i choose.:X
He's the 1 ask me nt to study, now he's the 1 ask me go sch again.
That time i told him abt going back sch he sae i sure cannot.
I dunno wad he wan actually. Everything is he sae.
He sae y am i keep calling other ppl daddy is it mummy's bf
i lazy to explain, jus tat sometime is actually friends call me
n i do hab so gan daddy what. He sae i lie k nvm jus treat it i lie den.
No matter what i sae is lie. I jus don understand whenever
he start talk to me or bro, is all abt mummy mummy n mummy.
I ask him we really got nothing else to talk? except mummy?
He even chase me home when i visit him @ hospital.
I really dunno how. I'm just feel so lost. . .
Mummy moving house again been busy help mummy pack things.
Last, me n bro closer to mummy.
Cause she always the 1 be there for us whenever we down.
She's the 1 that bring us joy, company us, teach us n willing to spend time
with us n not dad. He only bring money home .
So how u expect we tell u everythings. In dad mind
as long as he feeed us he consider mission complete.
He don even care when we young wait till now den care, of cos wil feel
abit awkard:X haish~
Cant imagine, even new yr all this reunion dinner all without him
Since when we got tuan yuan b4.
He always left us @ grandma house n he work not even 1 dae
company the whole family. He thrash the family.
All my young photo baby photo, i didnt see any single photo
i take with dad.

2010-06-23T13:26:00.000-07:00

i miss the old days.
i miss those past tense but nt the present tense.
its seriously over.
my mind just totally crazy.
im sorry i have to tell you, all the things gotta end.
no matter what i sae, u stil don get the meaning.
u stil doing the same things over n over again.
You don do whatever u plan, u jus do whatever u like.
you only left 5 days! u choose to stress yourself
with a stack of work tat incomplete.
thousands of sorry, but non of them is true.
all is just a word to shut my mouth.
im just emo at a corner.
without u notice till i start the war.
maybe partly is my fault, i nv handle tis properly.
maybe this story shouldn't start in the first place.
cause of the nightmare, cause of the past .
i did try to put in effort but duno y it didnt works.
how the story starts, but how the story end ?
im too free? or u too busy?
im too caring? or u neglect?
you are nt the 1 tat i use to know.
or i not the 1 tat you use to noe.

2010-06-22T09:10:00.000-07:00

Things jus keep repeating .
non stop. Stil the same, nobody there den u rem me.
last sunday, at work bad things happen.
kinda piss with that customer. And the customer jus
keep repeat sae call police all this.
Dare him to call he keep on shout n shout
wanna attract attention, duno y maybe cos mani things happen
reali cannot take it just scold back plus we been talking to him nicely.
his the 1 tat point middle finger at me somemore.
after quarrel heart pump veri fast, hand keep shake :X
damn scare sia, first time like tis.
after tat i sms, but kanna ignore.
onli moo reply me.

And yest another bad thing, since brother go reservist
my dad going crazy again. Sae wanna kill my mum.
ask her that dae y she n my bro go sign wad document .
is it tis or tat bla bla bla.
suddenly sae she cannot come home or else he just kill her.
1st thing is b4 offically divorce all this u agree that she able
to come home, help house work all this or visit me n bro.
NOW he just sae u come home i kill u WTF ok!
afterall his jus jealous abt bro n mum so close.
me is EXTRA de . thats y i always tell them y they give birth to me.
since im so extra.
But when he drunk, he cry all this sae y the family split bla bla bla.
i duno which one is him ! his true self.

im the 1 always thinking too much !
im sensitive!
but got who knows what i want?
i thought is ___ .
but ended up, is nobody .

2010-06-18T14:18:00.000-07:00

Emo TTM ~

Everything i say,
Everything you say,
but afterall ish Rubbishh say.
what am i talking?
Rubbishh?
i miss e days on phone
unlike now.
Sleeping timing sux.
Topic sux.
everything sux.
Smelly Dirty Rubbishh ~

2010-06-15T10:05:00.000-07:00

Im giving up Rubbishh afterall.

yest have a chat wit min yong hahahs =]
nice chat after that sleep.

Todae pass something, den meet le eat.
after that head to suntec den marina square.
watch marmaduke todae.
not bad veri funny .
den after dinner at subway
go carrefour buy bread n milk den home.
suntec got myself 2 clip n a hp strap
marina square got myself a i touch pink back case
thx dar dar *hugs
i reali enjoy todae.

i don wanna think n care .
get you outta my mind. ~

2010-06-13T17:50:00.000-07:00

Happy Belated Birthday to Ericaa
psps busy till mix up the date :X

Grat Andrea jie :)
give birth to a baby boy^^
Grat NaNa~
Just Married ^^

recently kinda lazy to post also :X
plus sick now better .
but still having flu.
yest morning nana call me.
so go find nana after tat head to work.
lucky gt cheryl cover backside hahahs
after tat go home, kinda tired!
den ended up 3+ jiu slp le haish =[

2010-06-11T07:34:00.000-07:00

finally 11 le hahas.
lalals im crazy anyway random post
Todae go meet nana at hus downstairs awhile
then go home rest.
headach =[ stil having fever, flu n cough.
This afternoon my dad sudden knock my room
door when i resting, den ask me i gt go his room
take his ez-link card anot all tis.
i told him i went in once is that time he ask me to adjust
the air-con timing all tis, n tats the last time i went in.
And he keep insists that i take his ez-link.
Then later sae is mum take.
then search here n there make alot noise n nag.
And DarDar u too must take care wor
cause you also having fever.

i'll don't care from now on.
im just thinking alot.

2010-06-10T09:38:00.000-07:00

COLD

im having flu n slight fever .
keep coughing :(
damn miss baby so much. . .
baby sotong seems like ignore me le .
recently im addicted to the game Angry Bird
kinda fun n can make u angry actually.
n buddy play le more angry .
n keep make noise . i was like lol
den play till he throw the i phone aside.
roar duno wad to post le
no moood at all .
so many things happen actually.

even though no sms or call,
i stil miss u alot without fail .
cause i ♥u

2010-06-08T09:13:00.000-07:00

Roar!~

T.T pimples :(
shoo pimple away. .
this few daes feeel veri tired :X
don reali hab the mood to post . .
recent watch the show prince of persia not bad. .
next i wanna watch ish marmaduke hahas :)

2010-06-04T03:55:00.000-07:00

ROAR cos i love my baby hahahas!~

aww this few daes finish work early :)
last week busy run here n there.
pei colleage go buy his laptop key the protector
n tat dae go suntec buy the fan for the lappy n i shop for my grocery.

the day before or yest alex called
n tell me abt a news. abt the kallang wann i was like uh!?!
wad happen o den he shoot me u nv see news ar
i sae no nv hahas den he was like WAH u ar. . . :)
den he tell me abt last few daes duno the kallang there
got 7 ppl anyhow chop ppl.
got 4 victim n 2 die :X den i was like OMG?!?
den he sae 5 caught le stil got 2 get away i was like T.T wah
den he tell me 1 of the victim hurt til how badly i was like
eee so poor thing ._." den he suddenly sae:" jo, u stay macpherson
right?". i was like uh huh den he sae later they go your house
there den u noe i was like choy ! so bad of him . alex mr bad of the week
under rubbishh.arrbishh list hahhs!
omg Loved this MV

SNSD & 2PM - Cabi song (Caribbean Bay) Full MV

the medicine make me so uncomfortable:(
haish, but MUST take :(
feel kinda restless -Day 7-

where's my baby?
where he usually go?
who he with?
if you wanna know kindly contact
rubbishh:)
cause his in my HEART.

2010-05-31T12:58:00.000-07:00

this few days been busy n so tired
now back to post some stuff. .
so last fri sat n sun busy working . as usual
n sat during work jus nice saw matt they all,
then have a chat with them.
after work go geylang with my partner to collect stuff
feel so weird, when i at there .
partner insists want to have dinner then we eat at
the coffee shop mix veg rice.
OMG the veg all already spoil .__.
tast so sour, the funniest part ish i didnt even noe till
i eat quite alot already :X damn . . .
after dinner then head back to shop leave all the things behind
den i go bugis find matt they all.
den hab a chat at mos burger den head to parklane volcano
find girl girl ^^ *suprise hahahs *hugs
after tat head to dobhy mrt go arcade see see den
take mrt home.
-bad things tat happen on sun
im reali no mood duno shld feel sad or wad?
just not in good mood, yet this bangala keep disturb me
like nobody business! not racist or wad?
but seriously piss me off. n not 1 ish like 4
came in a grp. ask for headset, told them $12 n i sae if u
reali wanna buy den i can open cos ish all seal up.
n i ask them price everything ok right?
they sae ok yet ended up they try everything, all ok
n they onli pay me $8. i was like wth. so u expect me
to help u top up. they stil can laugh! i was already quarreling
wit ppl yet this bunch of idiot come piss me off!
sometime i see them like work so hard jus to earn money i
pity them also, but when i think back wad they do all tis
find them MONSTER!
after that here come the war.
been in silent mode, cos i don wanna sae so much.
the more words i sae the more argue will appear.
i jus wanna coool down seriously.
i cant think of anything.
reach home the war reali start :( i told myself no better
don raise my voice, don argue n jus coool.
but i cant, cos it reali scares me .
The pain really killing me, Headach.

Super Junior - Beautiful Person [Bonamana] MV

_____________________________________________
im lost without you,
You are just like my Drug.
Each day pass i feel that the feeling
grow stronger.
I know the hardest thing to do is watch the one
you love, love someone else.
When'ever you need me i'll be there cause
I'm Yours.

2010-05-24T13:49:00.000-07:00

I'm Dying inside to HOLD you~

todae went suntec wit dar dar ^^
hahahs we go ToysRus see see toys.
n happen to saw tis soft toy hammer hahs
kinda FUN actually, althought it looks normal .
hahs when the hammer hits something actually got
sound come out.
got different kind of sound also, like glass brk sound
birthday song laughing n bla bla hahas.
bought 1 home. hahs cos reali cute :X
so RANDOM i miss Pri sch life, sudden thought of my cca
Rope skipping, Damn fun n nice. last time quit tat cca
cos need to wake up veri early rem mus always reach sch around 6.30
T.T nw think back kinda regret
plus too young to make my own choice :X
omg i miss rope skipping:)

True love begins when nothing
is looked for in return.

2010-05-23T14:07:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

HAIRULL :)

Yest not a veri good dae.
haish T.T
n Thanks my baby sotong for the tee ♥ ^^
Todae veri tired._.
busy whole dae serving customer.
met quite alot of weird customers tooo. .
n weather so HOT make me so headach ._.
n partner todae seems so HOT temper too :X
todae everything also HOT.
n my sotong always veri HOT hahahas :)
thats y i like hahahas . . .*blehh
lazy to type le shall stop here.

Love puts the fun in together,
the sad in apart,
The hope in tomorrow,
the joy in the heart.

2010-05-19T11:12:00.000-07:00

SICK ._.

have fever again ._.
been sleepin at home. . .
headach n keep cough. . .
sore throat tooo.
hate tis feelin nw feeel damn bad

[MV] 4minute - Huh

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength,
While loving someone deeply gives you courage.

2010-05-17T15:44:00.000-07:00

15/5
meet emiko @bugis after work,.
when i reach Bras plaza den i notice tat my
money drop ._.
i lost $70. *emo*
after company her buy books we dinner
after dinner slack awhile n Jap language 1st lesson
hahahs she teach me how to read alphabet n write
after that we take last bus home.

Todae meet dar dar.
then go kovan, suddenly dar dar ask me y so random
i was like cause got a milktea veri nice.
then she lol jus for milk tea.
ended up she thumbs up, cause realli nice =]
when reach kovan we shop around Heartland mall.
i bought 2 shorts, contact lens n books.
after shoppin milktea n slack outside kovan
talk n smoke then head back to heartland mall .
dinner at pizzahut, n i saw my neighbour hahas.
we take 2 hrs eat there ._. cos service slow:X
while we eating got a china cpl in front of our table
they quarrel till so loud n slam table all tis ._.
damn noisy. abit pek cek
after dinner go cold storage den home sweet home:)

Any great Love involves sacrifice.
You give up all your freedom.
But the love is so much greater than freedom.
I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was.
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They're in each other all along.

2010-05-13T10:21:00.000-07:00

ROTTEN

tis few daes rot at home. . .
cos no work but tml goin back work . . .
tis few daes at home read book, watch tv n surf net.
hmm. . . veri tired.
omg i find that now adays i smoke more than last time. . .
damn it. =[
ROAR!!!
nothing much to post .

If I know what love is, It is because of you
When the power of love overcomes the love
of power, the world will know peace.
seduce my mind and you can have my body,
find my soul and I'm yours forever

2010-05-10T12:35:00.000-07:00

Surrender. I Smoke again :(
sorrie peepz. . .
morning wake up veri early wit mummy
go pei god daddy see doctor
cause yest he hab a great fall @ hawker staircase:(
hand n leg swollen n he stil insists of goin shop!
y he fall cause he didnt eat for 2 daes
n he keep taking pain killer
i know his upset abt the sickness n his wound at the
ear veri pain :( but keep taking pain killer too much
not good for him too. his cancer third stage :(
hua kor kor tell me he don think he can . . .
but i belive he can ! he stil neeed to look after my child nxt time
i stil havent show him my bf too!!
after see doc accompany him home
den me n mummy go home cook curry
Todae meet dar dar went suntec
Pei dar dar see lappy. Den dar dar bought a
sumsung lappy, after that rush to
watch movie Iron Man 2
Dinner at Souperlicious ^^
eat pasta n soup. idk wad soup cause dar dar
help me order. . .
den head home. Tiring day.

When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because
reality is better than your dreams.
There's no remedy for love but to love more n
i have nothing more to give you than my heart.
True happiness is found in unselfish Love,
A love which increases in proportion as it is shared.
true love doesn't have a happy ending,
cause doesn't have an ending.

2010-05-09T10:53:00.000-07:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MUMMY

Todae i feel so FRESH n HAPPY
cos manage to on9 n i did slp yest
todae work kinda busy as usual. .
stock all tis got problem .
n recent charles call n disturb again
sae he got into police case ._.
but tis time his like not joking . . .
then get back to my work , partner disturb :'(
haish he jus full of rubbishh keep ask me
tis n tat tell me abt his love life.
for wad i see his already married n got 6 kids yet stil
hab a xiao laopo =X omg
wad if next time my hubby like tat .
happy yest i fall asleep after hearing some sotong
singing hahahs =X
now the cat wit me hahahs =X *hugging the cat =]
n the cat jump here n there. . hhahs
shall jus stop here, yawnzz. . . .

2010-05-05T11:47:00.000-07:00

The pain reali killing me ~

shyt my stomach pain veri badly again . . .
duno y like tis. .
the pain on n off. . .
sometime work half way den pain till cannot even walk
yest like whole nite cannot slp.
really stress . .

i'm soaking in the sweetness of love
baby muackiies~

2010-05-04T16:32:00.000-07:00

sleeping pills pls~

headach really neeed some sleep.
y am i keep losing slp . . .
my LG ice cream fone . DEAD? =X
omg all my messages n contact all just gone.
reali damn emo
i onli use less than 1 yr haish~

[Full MV HD ENG SUB]T-ara (티아라) - 내가 너무 아파 (I'm Really Hurt)

never let baby go
cos im jus simply love u

2010-05-03T08:16:00.000-07:00

Tiring Day~

Todae meet Rach around 4plus =X
pei her go little india do Treading
then head to dobhy ghaut . . .
shop around there, den she bought a sunglass.
after tat go charles n keith .
actually wanna buy a wallet for mum, cos mother's day round the corner
but didnt buy cos the color.
after tat go cotton on.
she bought legging, den we go cotton on body
we saw a bra wad 100% boost den we laugh
den rachh keep touch i sae u should buy 1 hahas
and she was like wth i don need tat =X
den we bought some stuff.
and head to Tpy. . . do some stuff
den go dinner at Pizza hut. . .
T.T i order bake rice n she order pasta.
den the food she order like so funni den we keep laughing
cos the whole entire pasta onli got few little prawn on top
den she complain not full.
n i cant finish my foood cos damn full. . .
after that we keep laughin cos the guy help ask take order wan
like soo young den she sae that's for me
cos im 小弟弟杀手 ._. ! i was like lol
den we chat abt omg we already so old le lol =X
den it remind us abt when we always go Ecp tat time.
we saw a pub, den keep sae when we old le wanna go there.
now we are old enough le den we laugh ~
after we finish our dinner there's dessert havent serve
den when the person giv us the dessert he anyhow put the dessert
on top of the use plate. den rachh sae bad service.
i was like lol they duno hw to clear the plate aside first ._.
after tat go koi's cafe, she recommand me drink Hazelnut milk tea
the taste veri nice =]
den home sweet home ~

baby no matter we got quarrel or not
jus rem i love u alot
i admit i make u suffer
can we just forget our mistake
im sorrie baby ♥ u loads

Kara's New Official MV: "We're With You" [HD]
love the costume so nice soo PINK!

T-ara (티아라) - We Are The One (16강 기원 응원가)

2010-05-01T11:08:00.000-07:00

Hugging cat n enjoying the
Tiramisu while blogging. . .

nothing special happen.
normal .
work n head home. . .
todae weather so HOT. reali almost cannot tahan
shag im sooo tired. i wann Zzz.
now hugging the cat while blogging hahahs
n enjoy my Tiramisu.
tryin to taste the different kind of Tiramisu
cause i planning to make but scare CMI
OMG i miss curly again T.T
haish sad. no 1 seems to understand hw i feel.
later gonna bring the cat down le
if not later dad naggy .
Tml ish sunday n im gonna cook again
so tired . . . SLEEP pls omg.

i'm just afraid~
weekdays BURNT weekends how?
also BURNT soon me n you BURNT too.
after that everything is too late to save.
maybe we already slowly drift apart,
just that you too busy to notice it.
FRIENDS can always be together for life.
but can we?
i do jealous at times, what's the reason for me being jealous
three words I LOVE YOU.

2010-04-30T09:30:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOY BOY
stay happy always. SMILE:)

todae reali veri TIRED.
feel so shag again. . .
and tis morning reali veri moody =[
haish damn y am i so mooody all the time
ROAR!! I HATE THIS FEELING~
after work meet dar dar go bras plaza
bought a mathematics syllabus A
n some stationary...
i'm getting ready to study wit emiko =]
after that dinner @ mos burger
head to cold storage buy milk coffee drink
den cab home. . .

I'm ADDICTED to this song currently
EREN -Takkan Pisah

sayang aku ingin berbicara kepadamu
tentang apa yang tengah aku rasakan
ada apa, ada apa katakanlah semuanya
ku kan dengarkan duhai cintaku

bila nanti orang tuamu meridhoi dengan
apa yang ku rasakan padamu
semua orang tua ingin yang terbaik untuk anaknya
begitu pun orang tuaku

kau takkan tinggalkanku
takkan pernah, sayangku
janjimu janjiku untukmu

reff:
takkan ada yang pisahkan kita
sekali pun kau telah tiada
akan ku pastikan
ku kan memeluk menciummu di surga

jangan kau pergi tinggalkan aku
bawa aku ke mana kau mau
janji ku padamu
jiwa dan ragaku mati pun ku mau

repeat reff :X

after translate can roughly noe wad it means
but stil need an expert to explain to me :)

2010-04-29T14:08:00.000-07:00

Don't know much thing ish better
than know too much.
it's painful to know too much. . . NO MORE HISTORY REPEAT

im losing slp again. . .
reali shag someone pls tuck me to bed =X
cant afford to slp 2to 3 hrs n stay awake .
IM REALI TIRED . . .
yest work, normal.
after work go home.
after go home do my stuff.
after my stuff i do nothing.

baby you will always on my mind
take caiire of yourself
stay happy always too
time to challenge our love n trust again.
cause you'll be busy for now.
no more nonsense from me.

2010-04-27T12:53:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday To Hao n Eileen

now ish 3.55am n im stil awake ._.
i cant slp ~ ROAR :X
*sobb* feeel damn stresss.
wad should i do. negative things came
into my mind again . . .

i've already found my love n
im happy to hab him by my side.