Thursday, December 30, 2010
Lost without you Day 30
Omg I saw his name I really damn high!!! * rubbing my eyes lots of time* really is him .
But after today Jamilia will be gone totally new year new life.
Sorry that she hurt u so badly ..
She really so sucky n bad girl u ever met.
10:09 PM.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Lost without you Day 27
So fast x Mas already pass~
so fast 27 day le . . .
soon 2010 going end .
Here goes my 2010 life .
Start anew possible?
Lets start from 24/12
the first outing with Lynda.
We meet at mrt station after our work
And im so shock i saw sean :X my ex actually stead with her. .
Singapore really so small, like this also can see each other.
But at first im so scare to tell her ,
eventually i still tell her :)
cause theres nothing to hide anyway . . .
Then we dinner at chinatown den head to eski bar:X
The first time i go after so long.
Last time i didnt go cause theres always a person waiting for me company me .
But not now, when i reach there i reliase i don feel excited like before,
maybe he change my life.
But not to spoil the countdown i hab to continue~
25/12 Merry x Mas ~
At eski bar already like 55% gg~
Thanks to rachel n sean!
Make me lose but sean lose more .
Ended up i keep lose to rachel ZZz. . .
Shyt stomach hurts so badly take a rest n then continue dice :X
N there it goes Lynda hugging ppl n ps-ing me :(
i was like gg~ *surrender* Play till like frm 12 to 15 dice left 7 only lol!
cant imagine how i play .
The i find that i like really cannot so stop
Look at it, it give me strength.
Hold it tite n his stil with me actually!
And sorry girl! cause im like abit drunk so never meet u :X
After a good nite sleep~
Went to work. .
Shag! work till 9 plus 10
All alone busy all the way !
Hit target .
After the break off since awhile i never hit target. . .
Finally i hit target!
26/12
mummy went to indonesia, i didnt follow . .
i just don wanna leave here.
27/12
I misss mummmy!!!~
And im super happy!!!
Finally she tak to me ~
I thought im dreaming !~
A big thanks to those who give me present!
Really love the present . .
But im sorry i still think having him around is the best :)
His already part of my everything~
And i love mummmmy~
She bought me 2 perfume gosh love her so much!
For work i have make quite alot of frens there.
so far so good :)
But the part not good is my boss:X
Recently they renovate the place .
And now i don have a place to put my bag
Tomorrow not going to bring bag! humph! stresss~
Stomach hurts everyday
Sooon i neeed pain killer again to kill the pain~
And its PINK
So fast x Mas already pass~
so fast 27 day le . . .
soon 2010 going end .
Here goes my 2010 life .
Start anew possible?
Lets start from 24/12
the first outing with Lynda.
We meet at mrt station after our work
And im so shock i saw sean :X my ex actually stead with her. .
Singapore really so small, like this also can see each other.
But at first im so scare to tell her ,
eventually i still tell her :)
cause theres nothing to hide anyway . . .
Then we dinner at chinatown den head to eski bar:X
The first time i go after so long.
Last time i didnt go cause theres always a person waiting for me company me .
But not now, when i reach there i reliase i don feel excited like before,
maybe he change my life.
But not to spoil the countdown i hab to continue~
25/12 Merry x Mas ~
At eski bar already like 55% gg~
Thanks to rachel n sean!
Make me lose but sean lose more .
Ended up i keep lose to rachel ZZz. . .
Shyt stomach hurts so badly take a rest n then continue dice :X
N there it goes Lynda hugging ppl n ps-ing me :(
i was like gg~ *surrender* Play till like frm 12 to 15 dice left 7 only lol!
cant imagine how i play .
The i find that i like really cannot so stop
Look at it, it give me strength.
Hold it tite n his stil with me actually!
And sorry girl! cause im like abit drunk so never meet u :X
After a good nite sleep~
Went to work. .
Shag! work till 9 plus 10
All alone busy all the way !
Hit target .
After the break off since awhile i never hit target. . .
Finally i hit target!
26/12
mummy went to indonesia, i didnt follow . .
i just don wanna leave here.
27/12
I misss mummmy!!!~
And im super happy!!!
Finally she tak to me ~
I thought im dreaming !~
A big thanks to those who give me present!
Really love the present . .
But im sorry i still think having him around is the best :)
His already part of my everything~
And i love mummmmy~
She bought me 2 perfume gosh love her so much!
For work i have make quite alot of frens there.
so far so good :)
But the part not good is my boss:X
Recently they renovate the place .
And now i don have a place to put my bag
Tomorrow not going to bring bag! humph! stresss~
Stomach hurts everyday
Sooon i neeed pain killer again to kill the pain~
Miss this drink that matt intro~
From hagen daz~
From hagen daz~
And its PINK
9:00 AM.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Lost without you Day 21
Today everything smooth .
Just that today pretty quiet.
After that the 3 small kid came :X
Keep stick to me and ask me teach them fold star :)
Then small boy sit on my leg
and i teach him fold .
his so clever show him few times he know how to f0ld.
And he ask me fold more :X cause he lazy to fold.
Then i say wah y i fold so much?
He say he help me keep for your syg :(
wah i damn emo but his cute .
When i finsh work i stay there awhile den go back.
Stomach just getting worse :(
but still jys~
Today got a customer offer me a job
$20 per hr wonder should i go for it:X
my mind cant think of anything . . .
Today everything smooth .
Just that today pretty quiet.
After that the 3 small kid came :X
Keep stick to me and ask me teach them fold star :)
Then small boy sit on my leg
and i teach him fold .
his so clever show him few times he know how to f0ld.
And he ask me fold more :X cause he lazy to fold.
Then i say wah y i fold so much?
He say he help me keep for your syg :(
wah i damn emo but his cute .
When i finsh work i stay there awhile den go back.
Stomach just getting worse :(
but still jys~
Today got a customer offer me a job
$20 per hr wonder should i go for it:X
my mind cant think of anything . . .
9:50 AM.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Lost without you day 20
Its been 20days .
I thought I can get over it .
But I can't, this time is really different .
Just hope everything is alright for him .
For work feel stress as usual.
Can say more stress .
It's been a year whenever I stress There will be someone who always there for me. Listen to me, make me laugh.
Give me his attention n love.
Not now anymore.. It's gone
9:18 PM.
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Lost without you Day 16
Wonder how's his day
did he enjoy ?
And today meet this stupid sheng fu
Which make me feel so irriated after so
long never see!
i say le i sure blog you man!
Cause u just irriate me!
Beeeen so noisy n disturb me!
omg i just hope u faster go :X
but before u go pls handle me the
present before u go :)
i wonder this year x'mas wad will happen.
And today just disturb eugene.
cause of the word boat n bed in chinese.
cause he prounce wrong :X
make me laugh.
And thats the time im thinkng
wheather if is syg how he prounce.
im sure he can do better than him. :)
dad still giving me black face whenever i see him .
feel damn upset.
Today work also crop up.
Lady boss quarrel with a customer.
And its somehow hinting me n blame me
for not explaining things well.
Yet customer insists that is not my fault
is lady boss attitude .
feeel so stressss~
Last hope uncle get well soon ~
Wonder how's his day
did he enjoy ?
And today meet this stupid sheng fu
Which make me feel so irriated after so
long never see!
i say le i sure blog you man!
Cause u just irriate me!
Beeeen so noisy n disturb me!
omg i just hope u faster go :X
but before u go pls handle me the
present before u go :)
i wonder this year x'mas wad will happen.
And today just disturb eugene.
cause of the word boat n bed in chinese.
cause he prounce wrong :X
make me laugh.
And thats the time im thinkng
wheather if is syg how he prounce.
im sure he can do better than him. :)
dad still giving me black face whenever i see him .
feel damn upset.
Today work also crop up.
Lady boss quarrel with a customer.
And its somehow hinting me n blame me
for not explaining things well.
Yet customer insists that is not my fault
is lady boss attitude .
feeel so stressss~
Last hope uncle get well soon ~
10:46 AM.
Friday, December 17, 2010
Lost without you Day 15
Today kinda shag.
And is a bad day.
Stresss at work again.
But mind just cant stop thinking .
Tears*
I'm so tired . .
But i just cant sleeep
Losing sleeep for duno how many days le :(
simply misss him loads~
Today kinda shag.
And is a bad day.
Stresss at work again.
But mind just cant stop thinking .
Tears*
I'm so tired . .
But i just cant sleeep
Losing sleeep for duno how many days le :(
simply misss him loads~
9:58 AM.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Lost without you Day 14
yesterday kinda happy
but tired too. . .
beeen never sleep well .
Stomach feeel so pain:(
friends don feeed me
anything le thanks. . :(
i wont fall again.
yesterday kinda happy
but tired too. . .
beeen never sleep well .
Stomach feeel so pain:(
friends don feeed me
anything le thanks. . :(
i wont fall again.
4:55 PM.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Lost without you Day 13
Everythng seems so different.
Silent. Miss the way you talk .
Miss the way u tease me.
Miss your joke.
Miss everything about you.
In order to let u happy n enjoy is not to disturb you . . .
Reading an article about the lose weight show.
their story is like damn touch:(
Tears roll down again.
Lucky cousin pei me the whole day :X
Finally i found girl le.
I got lots of things to tell you.
i should have wait for u so u will lead me
the right path. . :(
im alone i cant really think.
Especially when im stresss.
all sort of things i will just blur it out.
Stomach really hurts so badly. . .
Still insists ! i can take it.
Cause the pain that i cause hurts more than that.
The pain that can never be repair i guess.
Hopeless chanceless
Everythng seems so different.
Silent. Miss the way you talk .
Miss the way u tease me.
Miss your joke.
Miss everything about you.
In order to let u happy n enjoy is not to disturb you . . .
Reading an article about the lose weight show.
their story is like damn touch:(
Tears roll down again.
Lucky cousin pei me the whole day :X
Finally i found girl le.
I got lots of things to tell you.
i should have wait for u so u will lead me
the right path. . :(
im alone i cant really think.
Especially when im stresss.
all sort of things i will just blur it out.
Stomach really hurts so badly. . .
Still insists ! i can take it.
Cause the pain that i cause hurts more than that.
The pain that can never be repair i guess.
Hopeless chanceless
11:41 AM.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Lost without you Day12
after work went to east coast .
Miss syg .
Can't control again when at work tears roll down again.
after work went to east coast .
Miss syg .
Can't control again when at work tears roll down again.
11:34 AM.
Monday, December 13, 2010
Lost without you Day11.
I have no goals n aim.
Everything just gone .
I'm shag cannot sleep n everything .
But it's gone ~
I have no goals n aim.
Everything just gone .
I'm shag cannot sleep n everything .
But it's gone ~
2:01 PM.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Lost without you Day10
Yest im actually crazy.
its 11/12
Actually yest i did something stupid
go eat the candy that i bought frm clarke quay
the candy will show some color .
if change color means u good luck
if get greeeen wan means bad luck
if get white n a bit gold means u super good luck
n i got it! the white want
i thought i'll be super good luck :(
and its 11/12 but. . .
And today im sooo tired .
reach work place around 10 walk around n thinking
something . .
And i whole day busy packing n check stock.
tiring day.
i neeed someone to talk to, i neeed someone listen to me :(
i just missss syg~
and brother is back !
cant wait to see what bro get for me .
mummy tell me he get alot f things home
And april he's heading back to japan again!
ask him bring me along :( with syg? :X
impossible its too late. . .
i had really stresss him out.
my one wrong path can cause so many problem
he always treat me soo good yet
i just afraid of losing him n i did such a bad thing.
Yest im actually crazy.
its 11/12
Actually yest i did something stupid
go eat the candy that i bought frm clarke quay
the candy will show some color .
if change color means u good luck
if get greeeen wan means bad luck
if get white n a bit gold means u super good luck
n i got it! the white want
i thought i'll be super good luck :(
and its 11/12 but. . .
And today im sooo tired .
reach work place around 10 walk around n thinking
something . .
And i whole day busy packing n check stock.
tiring day.
i neeed someone to talk to, i neeed someone listen to me :(
i just missss syg~
and brother is back !
cant wait to see what bro get for me .
mummy tell me he get alot f things home
And april he's heading back to japan again!
ask him bring me along :( with syg? :X
impossible its too late. . .
i had really stresss him out.
my one wrong path can cause so many problem
he always treat me soo good yet
i just afraid of losing him n i did such a bad thing.
12:14 PM.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Lost without you Day 9
Today is 11 . 1yr 2mth~
Reni love sotong
Today really tired n shag .
keep drop things .
even small things like pen casing
handphone i also drop.
Dont know why :(
After all i know is aku rindu awak~
im sooo tired but i cant get to sleep
the drugs killing me.
Floood without fail . . .
Today is 11 . 1yr 2mth~
Reni love sotong
Today really tired n shag .
keep drop things .
even small things like pen casing
handphone i also drop.
Dont know why :(
After all i know is aku rindu awak~
im sooo tired but i cant get to sleep
the drugs killing me.
Floood without fail . . .
8:38 AM.
Friday, December 10, 2010
Lost without you Day 8
In order to sleep i must see the photo
Reminds me of how we talk at nite the kiss
all this before i can sleep
But at the same time my eyes floood
i just cant take it .
Maybe his the most important person i ever met in my life.
1 yr plus, ever sincei know him this is the
first day i go home late cause i cant stop thinking .
Even work my eyes will just floood
Just now went to dobhy meet emiko saw felicia n matthew. . .
After that cause i don feel like going home
went to clarke quay with emiko n matt.
have a drink at Hagen Daz .
order a drink that matt intro
omg that drink make me abit blur cause way too strong :(
after that actually my stomach feel pain cause
i drink with empty stomach .
after all its beeen days i never eat jys jian fei
after drink head to party world
Listen to the song they sing make me floood again
cause i miss his singing. .
i misss everything abt him.
especially the secret .
Just reach home feel tired but i cant sleep.
the drug is still on.
In order to sleep i must see the photo
Reminds me of how we talk at nite the kiss
all this before i can sleep
But at the same time my eyes floood
i just cant take it .
Maybe his the most important person i ever met in my life.
1 yr plus, ever sincei know him this is the
first day i go home late cause i cant stop thinking .
Even work my eyes will just floood
Just now went to dobhy meet emiko saw felicia n matthew. . .
After that cause i don feel like going home
went to clarke quay with emiko n matt.
have a drink at Hagen Daz .
order a drink that matt intro
omg that drink make me abit blur cause way too strong :(
after that actually my stomach feel pain cause
i drink with empty stomach .
after all its beeen days i never eat jys jian fei
after drink head to party world
Listen to the song they sing make me floood again
cause i miss his singing. .
i misss everything abt him.
especially the secret .
Just reach home feel tired but i cant sleep.
the drug is still on.
3:16 PM.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Lost without you Day 7
Yesterday didnt realise that i was hugging
my lappy sleep . .
I was shock when i awake. .
i'm really tired. .
I just cant kick that drug away~
Soon it gonna be weekends.
That will be the worse weekend
Cause i will be all alone.
Usually i will have him share story with me
chat n more. . .
Now i feeel the pain of living without him~
its really painful . . .
I cant imagine how i going to spend my
x'mas n new year~
I'm so afraid of that day cause thats not the plan
that i want it to be :'(
Yesterday didnt realise that i was hugging
my lappy sleep . .
I was shock when i awake. .
i'm really tired. .
I just cant kick that drug away~
Soon it gonna be weekends.
That will be the worse weekend
Cause i will be all alone.
Usually i will have him share story with me
chat n more. . .
Now i feeel the pain of living without him~
its really painful . . .
I cant imagine how i going to spend my
x'mas n new year~
I'm so afraid of that day cause thats not the plan
that i want it to be :'(
9:30 AM.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Lost without you Day6
Today im at home alone
feel damn lonely. .
All not at home.
Kinda miss brother.
And i misss syg. Without fail
Just find that is hard to find
someone that u trust by your side.
Walking back home tears roll down.
Hav a small chat wit him
even though some topic really hurts me
but i still accept it.
Let time prove everything . .
Today im at home alone
feel damn lonely. .
All not at home.
Kinda miss brother.
And i misss syg. Without fail
Just find that is hard to find
someone that u trust by your side.
Walking back home tears roll down.
Hav a small chat wit him
even though some topic really hurts me
but i still accept it.
Let time prove everything . .
9:48 AM.
Monday, December 6, 2010
True love can create a miracle
out of it so believe it <3
There it goes~
His not going to read anymore too:(
Punishment day 1, 2 ,3, 4 n 5
Today is fifth day .
Everything gone, no matter what is the truth
it cant change anything.
Even though i regret also cant change it .
But at least he remind me something
yesh i wan him be happy~
so joanne! let go ~
first must say sorry to him n his friend.
really sorry if somehow offend or etc. .
is really bad letting ppl wait isn't it ?
and can feel his already tired
he don wanna be like this anymore
and he don wann tell me too
but in order not to make him stress
i have to do something
so i just sae alright !
And that alright really kills me
after plan n things happen
i only know what is flood~
Friends, mother, brother n buddy
all scolded me for been so stupid.
i have nobody to hug ~
i feeel damn idiot y i do this.
see my i touch
listening to song that syg once sing.
floood again~
After that next dae i jus take off
cause i cant work my mind just
cant help it . N feeling regret :(
go dobhy meet emiko n raymond
saw felicia then have a talk after that
DDR! back to my old self DDR to release stress
but it dosent work, cause its too deep~
DDR n :'( thats wad i do
after that go j cube meet an
audi but 5 min i log off really no mood
cauuse not reno
went buy gong cha try the drink
but i don find it nice
maybe i already lost the taste of sweetness
3Rd dae i take half dae off~
cause i really cant help just keep :'(
after that go bugis with dar dar.
again play fishing game that i once addicted to it
but its still the same :(
4th day floood as usual
work floood work floood~
everybody knows what happen .
all ask me to cheer up
thanks :( cause my soul just gone to a far far place
i really duno what to do n think
everything seems like i have no goals no aim
everything gone~
n today just know a fren? :X jas
omg her tattoo really nice
today she do somethings really funny
thats sweet of her ~
but im still :(
seeing kids they keep ask me y i :(
make me smile i also cant in fact i flood again
cause it reminds me of how we going to live
in our future.
everything gone~
Now im at mummy house.
cause at home im all alone .
brother went to japan dad not home
i feel very lonely
my phone so silent
Chery don upset le john will understand 1 day.
and thanks
*i didnt know i stress him so much
till everything end.
i feeel that i was damn selfish
He already got his new life n target
我相信他能做到
我相信他会很幸福
我相信他将有一个美好的生活
我就心满意足
Cause we still staring at the same sky
out of it so believe it <3
There it goes~
His not going to read anymore too:(
Punishment day 1, 2 ,3, 4 n 5
Today is fifth day .
Everything gone, no matter what is the truth
it cant change anything.
Even though i regret also cant change it .
But at least he remind me something
yesh i wan him be happy~
so joanne! let go ~
first must say sorry to him n his friend.
really sorry if somehow offend or etc. .
is really bad letting ppl wait isn't it ?
and can feel his already tired
he don wanna be like this anymore
and he don wann tell me too
but in order not to make him stress
i have to do something
so i just sae alright !
And that alright really kills me
after plan n things happen
i only know what is flood~
Friends, mother, brother n buddy
all scolded me for been so stupid.
i have nobody to hug ~
i feeel damn idiot y i do this.
see my i touch
listening to song that syg once sing.
floood again~
After that next dae i jus take off
cause i cant work my mind just
cant help it . N feeling regret :(
go dobhy meet emiko n raymond
saw felicia then have a talk after that
DDR! back to my old self DDR to release stress
but it dosent work, cause its too deep~
DDR n :'( thats wad i do
after that go j cube meet an
audi but 5 min i log off really no mood
cauuse not reno
went buy gong cha try the drink
but i don find it nice
maybe i already lost the taste of sweetness
3Rd dae i take half dae off~
cause i really cant help just keep :'(
after that go bugis with dar dar.
again play fishing game that i once addicted to it
but its still the same :(
4th day floood as usual
work floood work floood~
everybody knows what happen .
all ask me to cheer up
thanks :( cause my soul just gone to a far far place
i really duno what to do n think
everything seems like i have no goals no aim
everything gone~
n today just know a fren? :X jas
omg her tattoo really nice
today she do somethings really funny
thats sweet of her ~
but im still :(
seeing kids they keep ask me y i :(
make me smile i also cant in fact i flood again
cause it reminds me of how we going to live
in our future.
everything gone~
Now im at mummy house.
cause at home im all alone .
brother went to japan dad not home
i feel very lonely
my phone so silent
Chery don upset le john will understand 1 day.
and thanks
*i didnt know i stress him so much
till everything end.
i feeel that i was damn selfish
He already got his new life n target
我相信他能做到
我相信他会很幸福
我相信他将有一个美好的生活
我就心满意足
Cause we still staring at the same sky
9:21 AM.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
ℒℴvℯ yℴu ♥
If i had a wish i would wanna be your tears,to be born in your eyes n to die on your lips.
But if u were my tears,
i would never cry in fear of losing you~
i love you~
Most of my friends got their life
got into relationship, busy with work or school.
what will my life be after tomorrow?
will i be given a chance?
ALot of ppl share wit me their story.
bout r/s, they say looks not important
matter is the inner beauty.
i cann see they r really lucky n forturnate
but do anybody know will i be the lucky 1?
Nobody knows the answer. .
i was thinking im freaking 21,
how many r/s i need to change?
by then how old will i be?
Plus when ever quarrel with dad
he will ask me faster get married
an uncle rich rich one also can
as long as can support u .
it really hurts :(
But afterall love cant be force,
i have to . . . .
Jys rubbishh~
Hope the Crane grant me my wish
No Regret making that wish ♥
(Y) Think back~
is really stupid cover here n there.
and i cant even expect i do til that extend~
Love that stupid memories n feeling.
Love the way you are~
8:29 AM.
