Monday, August 9, 2010
Happy birthday Singapore ~
Memories~
God daddy today pass away
and is on national day :'(
Rest in peace daddy.
I don't know is it good or bad.
Should i feel happy for him or sad.
Good?- cause he don't need to suffer anymore.
Bad?- cause he actually don't wanna leave yet.
(cause he struggle twice but nt the third time)
Happy?- cause he finally don't feel pain n can rest.
Sad?- cause i don't want him to leave me yet.
I just cant accept the fact that he already leave the world.
Cause i see him almost everyday, suddenly something missing
so sudden, so fast n i didnt even manage to see him this morning.
Today i actually preparing to go out yet a phone call n smses
say that: " dad already pass away."
don't believe i thought im dreaming. *pinch myself no! is true !
i reply back :"What?."
And yes is the same reply from them.
Then phone ring~ yes he already leave us. . .
Tears just burst out from my eyes, i just abt to see him
Y. . . so sudden so fast.
I cannot accept the fact that he's already gone.
When mum come home, there it goes i hug mummy n i cry.
i really cannot stop the tears. .
Wait till nite then i go down the funeral.
Saw his photo n coffin i cant control again n tears roll down again.
i really still dont believe his dead.
After talk to brothers they all. I thought i can let go.
But no, think back abt how i spend times wit him all this.
My tears just keep roll down.
Then i know that i still havent let go .
Really hard to let go. But i have too.
I can't imagine what will happen this friday.
I hope i wont cry. Cannot cry.
Something really missing out of sudden.
Miss his voice, his look his everything.
Miss him always~ ♥
even though his not my real dad, but since young
he always take care of me.
Teach me, play talk with me.
Not like my real dad. Only bring money home means
he take care of us.
All the while his like my real dad.
Thank god that his son accept me as half sister.
And im happy that even though he in pain
and when his mind nt very clear like half concious,
he still remeber me n mummy.
Hold my hand tightly n smile~
Memories~
God daddy today pass away
and is on national day :'(
Rest in peace daddy.
I don't know is it good or bad.
Should i feel happy for him or sad.
Good?- cause he don't need to suffer anymore.
Bad?- cause he actually don't wanna leave yet.
(cause he struggle twice but nt the third time)
Happy?- cause he finally don't feel pain n can rest.
Sad?- cause i don't want him to leave me yet.
I just cant accept the fact that he already leave the world.
Cause i see him almost everyday, suddenly something missing
so sudden, so fast n i didnt even manage to see him this morning.
Today i actually preparing to go out yet a phone call n smses
say that: " dad already pass away."
don't believe i thought im dreaming. *pinch myself no! is true !
i reply back :"What?."
And yes is the same reply from them.
Then phone ring~ yes he already leave us. . .
Tears just burst out from my eyes, i just abt to see him
Y. . . so sudden so fast.
I cannot accept the fact that he's already gone.
When mum come home, there it goes i hug mummy n i cry.
i really cannot stop the tears. .
Wait till nite then i go down the funeral.
Saw his photo n coffin i cant control again n tears roll down again.
i really still dont believe his dead.
After talk to brothers they all. I thought i can let go.
But no, think back abt how i spend times wit him all this.
My tears just keep roll down.
Then i know that i still havent let go .
Really hard to let go. But i have too.
I can't imagine what will happen this friday.
I hope i wont cry. Cannot cry.
Something really missing out of sudden.
Miss his voice, his look his everything.
Miss him always~ ♥
even though his not my real dad, but since young
he always take care of me.
Teach me, play talk with me.
Not like my real dad. Only bring money home means
he take care of us.
All the while his like my real dad.
Thank god that his son accept me as half sister.
And im happy that even though he in pain
and when his mind nt very clear like half concious,
he still remeber me n mummy.
Hold my hand tightly n smile~
5:27 PM.
