RUBBISHH CRY!i'm just a bloody rubbishh`smelly belly`

wth. today work sux.
maybe im FIRED?
wth... today rachel come find me pei her buy shorts .
after that she pei me at my work place there.
when i going knock off.
out of sudden the boss check stock
i told you no stock is you say after this will stop work for some time
so dont top up stock.
this you say that you say also but ended up is all rubbish fault!
you everithing want check?
i also neeed tie to do stock.
that time you say batt,headset n ex stuff like memory card then check daily
others weekly.
ended up want all but you last min say de!
scold in front of so many people.
worse is rachel there you still scold so badly not even a single face for me
if i really did wrong you can scold whatever you want
but fir nothing you scold me?!?
i do stock you say i never.
you claim other people do for you the stock till very good where's the stock book??
NONE!!!!
no stock check at all.
they even steal your money k!
i never felt so useless before.
scolded so loudly infront of the crowd.
tears rolling down you still can scold like fcuk

`daddy when you enter jail you say sorry for not taking good care of me and mummy,
you promise to take good care of us when you out, you regret doing wrong things...
the letter that you send to me. ='[
i feel so touch i know all the thing you do must be have reason behind it
but now instead to be better you getting worse
you now adays always will use sentence like the most go in jail again lo no big deal???`

people who dont know me well will puzzle
why later boss later daddy
cause his my god father
13hrs a day
1week 7days work non stop!
after all i mean nothing to you
now i know im just a tool ba.
rubbishh to you.

feel so childish out of sudden.
i thought buy some stuff or eat some stuff my mood or feeling will ok
but not cause rachel there i couldn't really cry out loud
when i reach home tears really roll down i feel like crying again
holding a xxx and start cut cut althought i know is childish
but only this can help my feeling feel better, i very long dont have this feeling tll recently. ='[





thought it could help but....



this cant help too...
thanks rachel
after that take a cab home with rachel.

reach house downstairs smoke smoke then go home =X





miss you always