past n now...

today the same customer came again... it seems like pick on me or what...
lol.. i finally piss him off...
i know my attitude sux nowadays...
attitude pro hor...
rubbishh you sux alot...
why? ...

the old rubbishh? shy quiet anti social?
now the rubbishh? noisy bitchy idiot?

talk to sum1 jus now ...
long time no chat thought things will be better...
but... he say:i think we don't contact better..
why i can't find a true friend who can chat with me lend me a shoulder ...
where is my bestie... do any1 know..
he say your friend also say you change ...
i really dot dot dot...
change??? ya i do change ...
so...
2days le....
i wonder how he feel bout me too...
me always e same... hoping to see you soon wor...

i don't have a happy school life ever since sec school
i don't have good friends around me?... i treat them as 1 do they treat me as 1?
am i that bad ?? seriously?...
i need a answer...